Well my post about a month ago was about my huband losing his job. I thought I would write to update you where we were in this journey. In the span of a month we have felt the prayers of many towards our family. I would be lying to you if I said that I didn't get discouraged throughout this time. There was about 3 strong weeks that I had until the enemy caught me in my weakness and I began to feel real discouraged about the whole situation and wondering where God was in the situation. I didn't want to be "mad" at God but I was a little. We were finally coming to a point where we had money saved and had money in our checking and we were going to be ok then it's just ripped from under us. I was mad. I loved Jesus more to let that get in my way though and I had to just let it out and I felt like Jesus said, " ok now that you got that out of the way do you feel better?" and I did. I felt like I told Him how I felt and now he was going to tell me what he was going to do. And his plan was to take care of me. Simple as that. no fancy things, no lottery winnings , nothing just, " Let me take care of you." and thats exactly what he has done.
The old me ( I say old me because I feel like I have changed and I have made it a point to change this new year and increasing my faith for things and in Jesus) would totally have been freaking out this whole time and not just the past week. This situation has also helped me be more open with people. Before I would have kept this to myself and pretended everything was ok. Recently I had confided in a few people and I have been able to count on others to encourage me.
To end this I would like to let you know that Jeremy did find a job and is so excited! Jesus worked out every detail and opened doors that were once shut and it has worked out because it was His timing NOT ours. Jesus has surely been our provider through the darkness and on the mountian and we are our grateful.
much love,
desi
